Andrew Joseph Henne

Something that sticks with me everyday of every month of every year that has passed is one conversation that seemed at the time of young kids dreaming out loud and turned out to be the reocurring convo I'll never forget, you took me to our lookout spot in cedar hill high on the rocks and it was sunset we was watching cars below and looking off into the sunset started to talk about how one day we would get away us two best friends where the rest of the world can't find us and I remember asking if you promised that you'd keep your word and you smiled and said only if you swear to hold up your end .. this was the night you out of nowhere started telling me I needed to go to a rehab that Yea it wasn't bad yet but it'll keep your mom and dad happy and you need to get away from Matt.. I remember you looked so serious telling me that not everyone gets an opportunity to start over damn near at the start of the game.. I so didn't wanna go I kept promising I wasn't hooked and I did h for fun and finally u looked to me and said look I love you you gotta do this and I'm not saying the whole month ur mom said just do two weeks and day 14 that white mustang will be in whatever parking lot it needs to be, and I made u swear on our friendship that you'd be there .. you swore. You told me to call everyday it'll be just the same except for one huge hug on day 14.. It was do or die I called my parents n gave them my decision and you stayed with me till my dad came to get me to make sure I went.. I didn't feel like that was it for me and u, but I started withdrawal bad the next day n rehab I called you you told me I had that Shit u were proud loved me oh and13 to go. You always kept a smile on my face.. I remember the next day sleeping a whole bunch until I'm not sure what time but I thought I was dreaming that you sat on the bed I was laying in and you had no shirt on you grabbed my hand and said not forever and I swear I'm okay, love ya and I jumped up I had a feeling after I couldn't shake .. I felt your hand I saw and heard u.. later that 23 day of May I got. A call I'll never be able to forget or to replay in my mind without losing myself I heard my mom say kaleena..this is serious idk should I tell u now or wait I said mom tell me and I remember her words there was an accident with Andrew, and he didn't come out...I dropped the payphone in the hallway of the rehab as I felt my heart shatter in a million pieces I felt like I was in some horrible nightmare I can't wake from I slid down the corner wall and just fell apart and I didn't want to be pieced back together.. I didn't talk to no-one for days, I had nothing to say, I lost my only friend my best friend, after days of replaying the last time I talked to you and saw you a million times wishing I would have told you you were everything to me, you were the reasons I got up in the morning, my hero when I needed saving you were right there and thinking of life without you seemed a hazy long and windy road, I woke up the day before your funeral I wanted to be there so bad, but the rehab ppl said if I left and went thru that I'd likely not return, and so my dad went for me to see "smiley" give you my love and on that day I remember feeling obligated to finish that program, because you saved my life by getting me there, I just had to do the rest and I did, when I finished I walked out of that building blew you kisses in heaven and said to myself I'll never be alone if my angel up there has anything to do with it. I could say it's gotten easier or the hurt isn't so bad but I'd be a liar, six years and not a day I haven't missed you. I love u more than I ever could explain, save me nosebleed seats ahenne

Happy Fathers Day to my wonderful son!! You always made me proud and seeing you with your own children and seeing the love for them in your eyes made me see what a great daddy you are!! I miss you more with each passing day and love you beyond words!! You live everyday in my heart!!

On May 27th 2011 You became an UNCLE!! I know you are smiling down looking over your beautiful neice.. Alexa Kate...she is such a cutie!! We all love and miss you so much and wish you were here...Your little brother a daddy..I know you would be very proud of him!! We will make sure Alexa knows what an awesome uncle she has and that you love her from the heavens!! We love u & miss u everyday!! xoxoxo

Today is May 23,2011 you have been gone 2 years today and it is no easier. I miss you as much today as the day you left. You will always be my baby no matter where you are and my life could never be the same without you!! Everyday I remember your georgous smile, the sound of your laughter, I miss you so much!! I thank god that he gave you to me for the 21 years he did but I cannot help wishing he had given you to me for my lifetime...Moms arent suppose to see their babies go..and when she does I dont believe her heart can ever heal. Someday I know I will be with you again and thats the day I will no longer be broken. I love you with all my heart xoxoxoxo mom

Sitting here tonight remembering some of our conversations, remembering what your hands and feet looked like...sounds kinda silly but I miss you so much!! I get on here as a way to be closer to you and relieve some pain Im feeling I guess its just my only way to get things out without having to upset anyone else..Andrew I could never ever put into words the pain I feel or how much I miss you I feel like screaming and breaking things but I know that would not change reality. Sometimes I just dont know what to do with myself the words I miss u or I love u...its so beyond those words I am completely lost!!!! I feel like my life is fake now I have to be this strong person that smiles and pretends shes ok when in reality Im shattered inside and soooo alone!! If I could just have one wish it would be for you to walk through my door and for this all to never have happened. I have been dreaming about you alot and I hate waking up and realizing your still gone...People say this pain will ease in time but its going on two years and my heart hurts as much today as the day you left!! I love you soooo much and I miss u beyond words!! Goodnight buddy love u!!!